Monday, January 20, 2014

Why Blog...

I've been asked the question a few times already.  I've actually been asked a few questions in regards to the subject.  Why do I blog?  What made me start the blog?  etc., etc., etc... Well here is the answer...

I like to write.  This allows me to write, about whatever it is that captures my attention. About whatever it may be that conjugates a thought into my head.  It's a way of keeping my mind stimulated.  Not only am I searching and paying attention more to what is around me to see if anything is worth writing about, but I also get to use my mind while writing.

You see I have a process with this.  I come up with an idea and I'll jot down the notes quickly onto anything thats available.  Then I start thinking, what can I add to this, what can I say to make it interesting.  I like to write as though I'm conversing with you, my readers, because essentially, that is what this is.  Its an easier way for me to communicate everything I feel the need to say.  And in all honesty, its easier for me to communicate certain thoughts through my writing rather than through speech.  It's that ability to be able to manipulate my words, edit my thoughts, and really get my mind straight on a subject before I actually "say it" that make it appealing to me.  I'm known for being brutally honest, something I would say I consider to be a good quality that I possess (though some may not see it that way).  Well, now I can do that, and be choosey with how I say things!

But when it comes down to it, the real reason I do this, it's a challenge.  It's something I would have never thought I would convince myself to share so much with others so openly.  I tend to hold things to myself until I reach a certain level of "friendship" (for lack of a better word) with a person.  A certain level of trust.  Well this is me challenging myself to open up.  To stick with something through a long period of time.  To challenge my writing ability.  To challenge my mind.

I want to share things with people that I experience.  I want to let you into my passions, my fascinations, my view on things.  I want to be excited about something and have others realize the excitement, and share it with me!

Recently a college graduate, I needed something that would stimulate my mind again.  I find myself learning and challenged through blogging.  I learn more about myself, what I want in life, the things I find most important to me.  I find myself thinking deeply about things just to see where I really stand on the subject.  In a way, these blogs are speaking to me, the me I somehow haven't yet convinced of my ideas and views, the me who still searches for answers.  Yet, when I write, I find myself wanting to reach out to all of you as well.  See I want my writing to not only help me through every thought, but possibly help you through the same thoughts.  Not to convince you on my point of view on the matter but rather to give you a perspective that can help you find your own point of view, no matter what it may be.

I feel confident to share this with more of you now.  I'm happy to have received such good feedback so far from all my readers.  This blog being basically my heart and soul, my inner thoughts, the side of me I have a tougher time opening up about, sharing it with all of you and being applauded for it...
Wow. Just, WOW!   I dont even know what to say other than thank you all.


Friday, January 10, 2014

The F word...

To ring in my first post of the year, let me begin by saying that I have come up with a million and one ideas on what to write.  I began writing a few posts and never felt they were ready to be shared.  They sit in my drafts until the right moment... (stay tuned).  But at odd hours of the night I'm hit by inspiration, as I wind down to sleep, I reflect on things from my day.  I had a day full of up and down emotions.  Exhaustion.  Alertness.  Anxiety.  Happiness.  Anger.  Hopefulness.  Sympathy. Joyousness.  Annoyance.  And what have you. (Yes, I'm a complete wreck at times... I'll admit it.) But I realized something when thinking back through my day.  I thought back to my day at work, my drive home, my daily face to face catch up with my mom (despite the fact we email or text throughout the day anyway), chats with my dad and brothers, and finally a nice little get together with my uncle, and cousins, and brothers (oh my!) at one of our favorite restaurants on a Thursday night for some live acoustics.

In my wise, old age of 23 (a month away from 24... if I might add) I have come to the conclusion that there is one word that I have come to accept as encompassing all that is important to me in life.  One word that would help describe what I am made of.  One word that means so much more than just a word.  It's the one constant and concrete thing in my life.


To some this may be a network of few.  To some it is a number of small networks.  No matter how you see it, who it's made up of, big or small.  It will always be your family.  The people you chose to keep there, or the people that were birth given to you.  Family will always be specific to the one calling it family.  Take mine for example, regardless of if I had a choice or not who was in it.... it's an entire universe.  My universe.  Why a universe? well simply because my family is irreplaceable to me.

Family doesn't necessarily have to be your mom and dad, siblings, uncle and aunts, cousins, and the list goes on.  Family is the people who have been there your whole life or for a short while that showed you that you are important to them and who have taken a special part in your life.  I am blessed to say that my "family" is made of pretty much those I am blood related to (and was fortunate enough to be born into the relationship).  God, however has also blessed me with some amazing people that through my whole life course I have absorbed into my family.

No matter what it may be that I am going through in life, the good times and the bad, I know I can call them at any time of day to talk about it.  They will genuinely be interested and want to help.  I have noticed that as a family we experience each others lives.  If one person is suffering, we all suffer for them.  If one of us is nervous, we are all nervous and calming each other down.  When one person goes through an amazing event, through those stories (and trust me we LOVE stores...some more than others) we all experience it.  A win for one is a win for all!

When everything has gone right in life, they are the first I want to call.  They have taught me the lessons in life that have helped me face any situation and the lessons I've learned I've shared with them. The motivation to face any situation comes with knowing the support, no matter the outcome, will always be there.

At the end of the day... No matter what emotions I may have encountered.  No matter what faces or experiences I have encountered.  The only people I really want to share everything with is my family.  I know that I will always have in them a long number of things. They are for me...
My support system.
My spine.
My wisdom.
My happiness.
My friends.
My diary.
My psychologist.
My teacher.
And the only thing that can truly make me go insane and ballistic and from one second to the next... Just like that (snap fingers here) it's like nothing ever happened and we are laughing again.

My family is my life line.

This year I will strive to experience it all with them.  Anything that life throws at me I do with and for them.  So as this new year begins... I am excited to experience my Family!