Wednesday, February 19, 2014


Wanderlust-noun \ˈwän-dər-ˌləst\
a strong desire or impulse to wander or travel and explore the world.
Deriving from a combination of a German word wandern, to wander, and the word lust, to desire, pleasure.

Now needless to say I "suffer" from this... and by suffer I mean this is something I will have for the rest of my life, it is incurable, and I would have it no other way!  I dream of seeing the world and filling my pasport.  To step foot on every continent. To pin on a map every place I've been and hardly see the map but rather a world of markings, foot prints of where I've been and what I've seen.  I want to travel and learn and experience and become a part of a culture.  I want to eat what the world eats, taste it, hate it, love it, it really doesn't matter to me but I want to experience my food in other countries.  I yern to hear other languages and become completely consumed into a culture which I know nothing of.  I long for the sight of the beauty that has been created by God because only He Himself could create such marvels.  My eyes beg for the sight of the people in a world completely different from mine.  To behold the beauty which lies with in the differenciation of features, tones, curves, everything there is to make them beautiful in their own way.

Living in the United States, we are exposed to only a glimps of everything there is for us to see.  Only a taste of everything our tongues can experience.  Only a faint whisper of all we can hear.  Though we are lucky to have such diversity, we still can not claim to have seen the world.

As said by St. Augustine, "The world is a book and those who do not travel only read one page."
We are given an entire world to enjoy and experience. Yet, very few go out to discover it. I refuse to be one of those who does not at least attempt to see it. If I could do one thing... if I had no limitations and I had no restraints, I would take a year off and travel the world. The pure bliss it would bring to me!  

Once you get a taste of what is out there, its hard to not wonder what else there is.  I see pictures and hear about the beauty of so many places, but its not enough to quench my thirst.  I want to see more! I want to BE THERE!  I want to have stories to share with everyone.  I want to travel the world and meet everyone once, share my stories with them and hear their stories as well.  

You see I've currently been developing this.... "obsession" if you will, with maps, globes, anything with the image of the world.  I want to be able to spin the globe, close my eyes, point a finger to stop it from spinning, and book a flight to whatever continent, country, city it lands on.  I think in my mind, surrounding myself with the images of the world might get me just that much closer to actually seeing it!  You know how they say "you are what you eat" or the spanish saying "di me con quien andas y te digo quien eres" (essencially, tell me who your friends are and I'll tell you who you are)... well ya, I'm hoping that applies to me surrounding myself with anything worldly/map related.  I believe that by surrounding myself with thing regarding the world will eventually lead me to being a world traveler, a cultured person, someone who has seen and met every kind of person that there is to meet.  (Is that weird?)  But really, I do believe this is true... so don't burst my bubble... I believe in this method people!

So as you can see... I "suffer" from this beautiful thing called Wanderlust.  This thing that puts that sparkle in my eye as I speak of it.  This thing that makes my heart pitter patter (and go bidi bidi bam bam).  This thing that drives my mind insane.  My mind constantly wonders off to vacation spots that I've yet to experience.  I read articles and stare at pictures of places that are so mysterious to me, so far away from me, yet so close that it hurts to not just take off and be there.  Yes BE.  Because there is no other way of experiencing such a marvelous thing without BEING a part of every little detail your adventure has in store for you.

Journey through ("suffer") with me on the adventures we all may take.  Embrace the Wanderlust.  Embrace the madness it causes in you.  It's one of those "it hurts so good" kind of desires... trust me.  I know I'm ready to start my journey... and a foreign adventure is in store for me... (back to the mother land for a week... eeek I can't wait).  I'm ready for that passport to start to fill up.  So be ready for photos and stories and to journey through with me.


P.S. I found it fit to post about my greatest passion today that it is my birthday (yay!!! 24!)... with that said... a resolution, or promise to myself, to travel more, see more, learn more, and experience more in this next year of life God has given me!
Birthday gift to myself: a trip to the motherland... let the journey begin! Passport, check! Suitcase, check! Wanderlust, CHECK CHECK!!

Friday, February 7, 2014

"Our deepest fear..."

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne WilliamsonA Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"

I read this quote the other day... and as I got to the second line I read slowly as my mind began to process what I was actually reading.  The truth is I never realized that the things I've been afraid to do in life would possibly be some of the most daring yet greatest experiences I could have in life... that is IF I chose to pursue them.  Or maybe I actually chose a certain path because of some greater purpose.  I mean any decision will have consequences and that doesn't exactly mean it will be bad ones.  We all have a journey in life to get through... and our choices pave that path.

Now think of this.... I may be going out on a lim here and speaking completely from my own belief, view, perspective, opinion... whatever you may want to call it.  But just think of this...

God created us with a purpose, yet he gives us free will.  The ability to choose our path.  Ever wonder why we may be tempted to go one way or another when it comes to making a life changing decision?  Ever wonder if our life has only one path and one destination or if it has many paths to the same destination?  Or who knows, maybe we have many different paths that lead to many different destinations and only we can pave the way for our final destiny.  I don't know what the answer to all this may be.  I don't know what your beliefs may be.  But I certainly know what I believe.

I believe that God has given us the choice to stray from our given path, the path he has chosen for us.  He wants us all to lead an honest life filled with purpose, passion, and love.  He gives us freedom to choose that path for ourselves, yet He does not force us to take it.  He gives us options and though we may stray from His path and begin to pave our own, I do believe he always leaves the option of returning to His path open to us.

Recently I've gotten this urge to do something more with my life.  This thought in the back of my head that makes me think to myself "Andrea, there is a lot more for you to accomplish in life, a lot more for you to experience.  Now get up, get out, and DO IT".  But why haven't I?  Am I too afraid?  Am I scared to fail?  Or am I afraid of the fact that I might actually accomplish something that will change that ever so comfortable routine my life has come to at this point?  The truth is... I don't know.  

That's right folks, I'll admit it, I don't know it all (although I think deep down inside... actually its really not that deep its more of a prominent belief... I think I do know it all.  But hey, I'm 20 something.. of course I think I know it all).  But in all seriousness, the fear of not knowing... THAT has kept me from some amazing experiences so far.  I don't want to say I regret it... because like I said, I do believe in a greater purpose in life and I KNOW that God will lead me there.  I will however admit that I am left with "what ifs" and that can take a toll on a person when they reach a subtle low.  The upside however, I have allowed for a different path to take place, or maybe to continue on the same path, by not choosing to go through with some of my ambitions.  And all though I may not have taken them in the past, the option to do so is still open if I choose to go through with it.

But I ask myself, and challenge you to ask yourself as well, "What am I afraid of?  How powerful will I allow myself to be?  Why do I hide behind my own shadows?  When will I allow myself to shine?"  We all deserve to shine.  We all WILL shine, as soon as we decide to break past the shadows and go beyond our comfort zone.  Step out onto the unpaved path.  Let yourself shine and show the world what you have to offer. Don't let your fear of failure pull you away from your ambitions. For even failure is not a definite "No" from God, but rather think of it as an "I've got better plans for you" or a "Not right now". Trust the path you are on. Trust the choices you make. And most importantly, be who you want to and are meant to be.