“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
― Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"
I read this quote the other day... and as I got to the second line I read slowly as my mind began to process what I was actually reading. The truth is I never realized that the things I've been afraid to do in life would possibly be some of the most daring yet greatest experiences I could have in life... that is IF I chose to pursue them. Or maybe I actually chose a certain path because of some greater purpose. I mean any decision will have consequences and that doesn't exactly mean it will be bad ones. We all have a journey in life to get through... and our choices pave that path.
Now think of this.... I may be going out on a lim here and speaking completely from my own belief, view, perspective, opinion... whatever you may want to call it. But just think of this...
God created us with a purpose, yet he gives us free will. The ability to choose our path. Ever wonder why we may be tempted to go one way or another when it comes to making a life changing decision? Ever wonder if our life has only one path and one destination or if it has many paths to the same destination? Or who knows, maybe we have many different paths that lead to many different destinations and only we can pave the way for our final destiny. I don't know what the answer to all this may be. I don't know what your beliefs may be. But I certainly know what I believe.
I believe that God has given us the choice to stray from our given path, the path he has chosen for us. He wants us all to lead an honest life filled with purpose, passion, and love. He gives us freedom to choose that path for ourselves, yet He does not force us to take it. He gives us options and though we may stray from His path and begin to pave our own, I do believe he always leaves the option of returning to His path open to us.
Recently I've gotten this urge to do something more with my life. This thought in the back of my head that makes me think to myself "Andrea, there is a lot more for you to accomplish in life, a lot more for you to experience. Now get up, get out, and DO IT". But why haven't I? Am I too afraid? Am I scared to fail? Or am I afraid of the fact that I might actually accomplish something that will change that ever so comfortable routine my life has come to at this point? The truth is... I don't know.
That's right folks, I'll admit it, I don't know it all (although I think deep down inside... actually its really not that deep its more of a prominent belief... I think I do know it all. But hey, I'm 20 something.. of course I think I know it all). But in all seriousness, the fear of not knowing... THAT has kept me from some amazing experiences so far. I don't want to say I regret it... because like I said, I do believe in a greater purpose in life and I KNOW that God will lead me there. I will however admit that I am left with "what ifs" and that can take a toll on a person when they reach a subtle low. The upside however, I have allowed for a different path to take place, or maybe to continue on the same path, by not choosing to go through with some of my ambitions. And all though I may not have taken them in the past, the option to do so is still open if I choose to go through with it.
But I ask myself, and challenge you to ask yourself as well, "What am I afraid of? How powerful will I allow myself to be? Why do I hide behind my own shadows? When will I allow myself to shine?" We all deserve to shine. We all WILL shine, as soon as we decide to break past the shadows and go beyond our comfort zone. Step out onto the unpaved path. Let yourself shine and show the world what you have to offer. Don't let your fear of failure pull you away from your ambitions. For even failure is not a definite "No" from God, but rather think of it as an "I've got better plans for you" or a "Not right now". Trust the path you are on. Trust the choices you make. And most importantly, be who you want to and are meant to be.